My 50th birthday is approaching and I have been reflecting on my life. One of the most impactful books for me growing up was, “Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret.” by Judy Blume. The story is about a young girl having a very personal experience with God, all the while going through puberty. I can’t say for sure, but it may be that this book started me on my quest to have an intimate connection with my Soul and the Divine.
Maybe I Should Just Give Up
When looking for a deeper connection with Divinity, as in any other relationship, sometimes we are in sync and sometimes not. The difference in our relationship with the Divine is that the Divine doesn’t have free will. There is no agenda with Divinity but to love and provide for us. So ultimately, how we feel about ourselves, our beliefs and what we think about most are what the Divine is going to reflect back to us.
I had to adjust my ideas and perspective on that relationship and come to the understanding that Divinity doesn’t have power over me. And, there have been times where I wanted to throw in the towel and say, “I’m done God. I’m going to give up this exploration of intimacy with Soul and Divinity.” What stops me from doing that is always an experience where I can feel and know that the heartbeat of the Universe is also my heartbeat.
So, Why Don’t I Always Get What I Want?
Manifestation is a topic that you could study your entire life and still have more to learn. Each of us needs to find (and keep finding) our perfect formula of receiving and giving. A few of the reasons we don’t succeed in getting what we want are: limiting beliefs and thoughts, not knowing what we truly want and/or just asking for too little.
My process when I don’t get what I want is to understand that I was simply off my mark. Then, I conduct a Conscious Elevation and begin again.
Are You There Jennifer? It’s Me, Divinity.
What I have come to understand is that I am both a drop in the Ocean of Divinity, and also the Ocean of Divinity in a drop. When I began to stop seeing myself as alone and solitary, it allowed me to relax and feel Divine Love. After experiencing that feeling for even just a moment, I realize that I am unlimited and can create, receive and achieve anything.
Creating this conscious communication between yourself and the Divine is a personal journey, and there are structures and tools you can use to support that voyage in grace.
