When I was younger I used to say “I’m so angry I could bark.” To tell you the truth, to this day I’m not really sure what that means, but the other day I was so angry I could bark. Who was I angry at? Myself? Well, I can always love myself more. My peeps? No, they rock the house. My family? No…so who was I mad at? Who made me want to scream and throw things?
I was mad at God. Yes, I said it! I was mad at God. There it is. Something that people usually only talk about in whispers.
And now that the anger has passed, it seems rather funny to me. We are all under the impression that if we don’t feel positive, if we don’t really feel the love and the joy, well then we are (beep!).
Ernest Holmes and Jack Canfield, two Souls that I respect, have both spoken, taught and educated us on the big Law of Attraction. Now we are all monitoring how we feel and what we think, and for me that leads to a fear that if I shared with God exactly how I was feeling, I wouldn’t get what I wanted, needed or desired.
I was feeling frustrated at being human, frustrated at having this purpose of being the shepard of Soul Language and frustrated that it seemed like I wasn’t getting what I really wanted. How was I to accept comfort for all that without acknowledging to myself how I was feeling?
So I stopped fighting the feelings I was having and just had them. I let the energy flow over me, sat down on my kitchen floor and said, “God, I am pissed off.” What happened was this: I instantly understood that this all-knowing power was just waiting for me for me to feel the support and love. That it was really o.k. to be angry at God, and that holding back that feeling, trying to stuff it down into a place where no one would notice, was exactly what had been holding me back from receiving what I wanted, desired and needed.
There is this growing expansion happening NOW and if you don’t allow yourself the space to feel what you need to; if you don’t allow that energy to move through you, that expansion is going to be a painful process. But it doesn’t have to be. For humans, the definition of unconditional love means all emotions are received without judgment.
You need to express what you are feeling, without judgment, without thinking that you should be feeling something else. Whatever you feel, let it move through you. A song needs all the notes of the scale to sound beautiful.
When I got up off the floor, I remembered a card a friend had sent me awhile back. It told me “If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.”
That made me smile all the way to my Soul.
Jennifer Urezzio is an intuitive healer and the founder of Know Soul’s Language. Soul Language is a way to consciously connect with your Soul that was received through Divine Guidance. Understanding your Soul Languages allows you to access your own Soul’s guidance to accept your value, be more confident, have more impact and grow into a stronger leader.
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